Jobs....

So... i need a job...I have been looking at a few... I know I want a smaller school, but there are different locations that I am looking at... here and home... here being a bigger town with a lot to do... a few friends... lots of guys to talk to... home being a small town...nothing to do.... and NO guys to talk to... the job at home will be SO MUCH EASIER to deal with... less problems with the students... they are WAY less ghetto.. so the situation is this... take a job where the students dont make me want to dr ink...and have nothing to do OR stay here put up with kids that su ck... and have a social life...oh the dilema.... what shall a girl do...

My Co-Dependent Tendencies

I know I have a problem about thinking that I have to have a man to make me complete. I know that I need to work on this, but my friend recently told me that I am a co-dependent person. I thought about this for a while and have come to the conclusion that I do have the tendencies. When a guy is mean to me and I dont need to be with him I stay because I want to control him and make him want to be with me. If my guy has a problem... aka last boyfriend.... I want to stay with him to "help" him. I want to feel wanted and that someone can not live without me. This has been bothering me all day. Why do I feel this way? Nothing bad has ever happened to me in my past to make me have this problem. What is wrong with me? Why do I feel like I need to give this f ucker who laid his hands on me a second chance? I DONT KNOW WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!!!!!!??????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I sure can pick 'em!

I have recently had a horrible experience with a guy that I thought I could trust. I guess not. Please tell me what would possess a man to lay his hands on a woman. Someone half his size. Does that make him feel like he is somebody?

So to start this story. We were out playing pool and everything was fine. All of a sudden he was tra shed. He told me to go home, he didnt want to see me. Then proceeded to call me a sl ut... I went back into the bar to tell his friend to talk to him and see what was up. He then told me that I could go be with his friend. This was crazy, but I brushed it off as him being dru nk. We then went to a second establishment and I didnt have my ID and they would not let me in. I asked him to go to my house to get it he told me no. So I had his friend go with me. We were gone for 15 mins. When we got back... of course according to him I had f u cked his friend. This led to a huge fi ght at my house in which he honestly threatened to k ill me with his bare hands. Me being the "to ugh" person that I am, got in his face and said to him " You don't fu c kin scare me" ...this was a mistake,... he then proceeded to take me by my hair and twist me around. I had to ki ck and h it him to make him stop hur ting me.... I then forced him to leave my apartment. I was going to call the police and press charges on him,but he honestly scares me. I dont think he would hesitate to hurt me if I told on him.... I have never in my life been so upset about anything in my life. I cant sleep. I am having trouble keeping my food down. I am a nervous wreck. No one has ever had the ba lls to lay their hands on me. There were so many signs that I should have seen this coming, but I never thought it would really happen. I guess that when a man is mean enough to say things to you like "you are a fat a ss sl ut that needs to loose some f uck in fat off our a ss" maybe they would have the ba lls to hit you too...

I can honestly say that I am not sure if I will ever be able to trust any guys again. Who says that they will not raise their hand to me too. I saw my dad hit my mom a couple times and I told myself that no man would ever have second chance to put his hands on me, and I swear to God that no man will. This is the first and the last.

To all of my friends... I am sorry that I didnt listen to you about him. I think that I took something this drastic to get me to realize that all of you really do know what is good for me.... I love you guys. Thank you for being my friends.

Golden Girls

I have this thing about the TV show Golden Girls. I dont know why but those women are THE funniest people. They all remind me of girls in my life. Blanche... I love her... she is the most like myself... :). Dorothy...I think she has the best timing on her very sarcastic remarks... she reminds me of my best friend #1... Rose... E....yeah... definately E... she is very clueless... Sofia... she is my favorite... she is the grandma that I would have loved to have...don't get me wrong I had FABULOUS grandmas... but wouldn't have been great to have her as your grandma!!! I hope that me and my friends are just like them when we grow old. How fabulous would that be!!

Bellybutton Kisses

So it has been requested that I blog about an incedent that happened a few weeks ago at a local establishment. My dear friend #1 just found out about this last night, I can't believe that I never told her.
So we are at this establishment and of course drunk #2 was out. I went to the bathroom and as I was getting ready to wash my hands a woman was telling everyone in the bathroom that they should not have kids cuz they will get fat. She proceeded to pull up her shirt and squeeze her belly fat. Well, drunk #2 decides to chime in on the situation, and says " Hell yeah, I know what you mean". I then pulled up my shirt and squeezed my belly fat. She then looked and me and said..." Give me a bellybutton kiss"... We then proceeded to put our bellybuttons together and squeeze them as if they were lips and gave each other bellybutton kisses. Now mind you, I have never in my life hear of such non-sense, BUT it was prolly some of the funniest sh!t that I have ever encountered in my life.
I recommend that everyone, at least once in their life walk up to a perfect stranger and tell them that you want to give them a bellybutton kiss! See if it works!!

"ILoveYouWaitNoIdon'tBye"

Ok so drunk #2 came out to play last night and said some stupid things. One of them being at 3am to my boyfriend, who I have only been with for about 2 months. As we were getting off of the phone I said and I quote:

"I love you...wait...no I don't...Bye"

Then I just hung up. WTF....why did those words come out of my mouth... I dont love him... Thankfully, he was also VERY intoxicated so he does not remember that I said it. #1 told me, after she got done laughing her @ss off, that it was ok because it is just an old habbit. It was really funny. The greatest part is that I didn't remember that I said it until just now, 11pm the next day...What a night!

Snow Day

So I am sitting in my apartment on this lovely day because we got a snow day. Which here in is our city is very rare. They may call off school because it is like 20 below zero and our students can't walk to school or stand at the bus stop, but not for snow. Granted, there was a blizzard warning, the snow is not that deep and the roads are clear. I am very confused... but oh well.. I dont have to see the little sh its! :) That is all I have to complain about for now. Have a great snow day!

If you say you will...do it!!

So just this lovely evening I had the pleasure of being agrravated with my boyfriend for the first time when nither one of us were drunk. I was supposed to call him at 9:30... I forgot...I ended up not calling until aroung 9:50. He did not pick up and I left a message for him to call me. An hour later, he calls.
"Hey, sorry I fell asleep. I'll be there in a few"
Ok...so then another hour goes by...no boyfriend... so I go to bed. I had only been asleep for 5 minutes and my phone rings,
"Hey, sorry. I got to talking to my sister. You still want me to come over?"
After a couple seconds of deliberations. I told him yes. My reasoning... we are supposed to have a bad winter storm here tonight and I don't want to be alone. I know I should have been like.."Hell no! If you want to see me then you can come when you say you are going to come."... BUT... I didn't.
This leads me to this thought... is it just men in general that do things like this... or is it him ( and a few others that I have dated in the past). Is it really that hard to do something that you say you are going to do. I mean, a few minutes late here and there is ok.. but a hour or more is ridiculous.
So to any man that may be randomly reading this fabulous blog, please remember this, if you say you will be some where at a certain time... be there.. or we will just sit aroung and blog about you all night long! :)

Liars....

So I know this person... I cant use names on this website so I am not... I have gotten close to this person and I know that they flat out lied to me about something and I have recently found out that this person did this... This REALLY bothers me... this lie was not just a little lie either...it was pretty big... I am not pleased at all.. if you have read earlier blogs made by myself you would know that the #1 thing that I dislike in this world is a LIAR... I cant stand it...especially when I know that that person is lying... AGHHHH... it really pisses me off... I have just decided though to not really do anything about this lie, but instead just NEVER belive anything that comes out of this persons mouth ever again... each word will be taken with a grain of salt... I think that this is the best thing for me to do...ok that is all my ranting for now.. good day!

Pot Calling the Kettle Black...

So... we have been out of school for the last few days because of a natural disaster that occurred in our town. We got word tonight that we would be back in school tomorrow. I am VERY disappointed about this. I have become lazy over these last days. I really dont wantt o go back to work. I realized that I am now a hypocrit. I tell my students EVERYDAY that they are lazy because of many different things. Either they wont do their work or they ask me to bring them something because they dont want to get up. So I am going to go back to school tomorrow and not really get into any lessons because we only have 2 days left of the week and my kids will forget anything they have learned over the weekend... so spelling worksheets it is!!

Too much time on the knees...

So I went to the orthopedic surgeon yesterday to hear what I already knew inside... my knees are "shot"... I knew this would be the case before I even stepped foot into the office... My legs hurt soooo bad everyday there was no way there was nothing wrong with them.... according to the dr. my legs are out of alignment and that causes my ankles to hurt also ... my knees are also very weak... so as a solution to the problem we have decided to start small... I have to take some pills to build my cartalige, I have wear these things in my shoes to straighten out my alignment, and I had to join the gym to build up the muscles around my knees... i also could use to lose a few.. that will take some pressure off of the knees...

So why did I have to get the "bad" knees in my famiy... my brother was active his are fine... so are my sisters... why is this that i got all of the bad genes... my sister and my brother are pretty tall... im 5 foot tall... my sister has straight teeth... my are very crooked... but i can say this... I GOT THE SMARTS!!!! HAHA!! :)

so we will see where the knee thing goes... there will be an update april 5th, because I have an appointment with him on the 4th... WISH ME LUCK!!

Happy Bday G Dawg!!

So wow! Today I realized how young I really was when I had my son. He turned five today ... Im only 24... 19..... 19.... I was pretty dumb back then, but I can honestly tell you that I would never in a million years change what I did... I would not trade him for the world... He just may be the best thing I have ever done... he is very smart and very charming... just ask the ladies... :) I hate the fact that he is not here for me to give a huge hug to on this special day, but I know that it is for the best... i will go home this weekend and have a fabulous time with him and then we are back here to spend some time with all of th fabulous aunts that he has aquired!!! He is so lucky to have such wonderful people who love him.... So Happy Birthday to G Baby!! I love you!!

I'm soooo way behind...

So I was just informed the other day by my fellow blogger friends that I am not keeping up on my blogging. I thought nothing of it until I just visited ch-hay's blog site and notices that it all is true... I am slacking... I could not tell you why... maybe because I really don't write blogs well.. .or maybe I have been too busy.... or maybe I just need prompts... I am not sure of why, but to catch myself back up here is a short and sweet version of all previous blog challenges that I have not kept up on....

Fav Quote: "You can not be lonely if you like the person you are alone with"

I am not sure who is responsible for this quote but I love it... it is exactly how I am supposed to live my life but I seem to not be doing so right now... but it will happen.

Hair cuts: I have had many o' bad hair cuts in my life...lets not talk about that....

Family- My family is huge and I know almost all of them... I can think of anything else to say...

OK I give up... at least I tried!!!


Hit me with another challenge!!! :)

Yet another message from DRUNK CH-HAY 2 !!! :)

Hello! It is 3 am and I am just getting home from a DRAMA filled evening!! It all started very well until a certain girl who claims that she is my friend got fu cking jealous because my coworker that she really likes but wont admit was being stupid and slapping my a ss and stuff and wasnt talking to her. She was feelig bad about herself so she wanted to make me feel bad too... she dragged me into the bathroom of my coworkers house and took off her clothes and proceeded to tell me that I could not look at good as her because i didnt "love myself"... ok so she dropped some lbs. and now she thinks she is somebody... she proceeded to tell me that i could never look like her while hanging out with who i am hanging out with... she was in my face pointing at me yelling "look at me" .. i almost beat her a ss... but she finally left the bathroom and then started to be a biznatch to my other friend and they got pi ssed and then everyone got into a fight and this "friend" says to my other friend that she is a size 5 and that she should recognize that... what does that mean... oh well... i cant help it that i am happy with myself and she is not .. i also can not help that the guy that she thinks likes her doesnt... that is not my fault... so we left and got more dr unk and danced the night away.. i told you that dancing makes everything better! :) i think i need to pu ke.. goodnight!

A message from Drunk Ch-hay 2

So my friends decided that I was not cool enough to be involved with the 17 point check list ...Iam involving myself....

You all are so picky..

1. Good teeth
2. great sense of humor... sarcastic...can take as well as recieve.
3. J-O-B...i dont care what it is.
4. Has his own car.
last but not least...

5. must have a pen is and know how to use it!!!

:)

I am not that hard to please!!!

ok I am drunk and must sleep!!! Goodnight to all!!

Random Thought from My Crazy Mind....

So I was just sitting at my desk and I thought of college which led to thinking about my MSN messenger that I could not live without at the time.... which then led me to think of my screen name.. which was " Natty Light Any Night Cuz Cheap Girls Have More Fun" ...you my question to you is.... Do cheap girls have more fun... why or why not???

Would You Rather......

have every orga sm you have take a year off your life

or

have every org asm you have kill one of your friends


Ponder this FRIENDS!!! :)

Life's Little Pleasures....

Ok am I just easily pleased or are there just things in this big world that just make a person's life better. For one, Thirsty Thursday.... every Thursday of the week and group of girls from school go out for margaritas at a local establishment in town. I look forward to this day as soon as we leave the bar...is this weird? I feel like my week is better while I am with my friends enjoying a frostly beverage... Am I really better or am I just drunk!!! :)