My Co-Dependent Tendencies
I know I have a problem about thinking that I have to have a man to make me complete. I know that I need to work on this, but my friend recently told me that I am a co-dependent person. I thought about this for a while and have come to the conclusion that I do have the tendencies. When a guy is mean to me and I dont need to be with him I stay because I want to control him and make him want to be with me. If my guy has a problem... aka last boyfriend.... I want to stay with him to "help" him. I want to feel wanted and that someone can not live without me. This has been bothering me all day. Why do I feel this way? Nothing bad has ever happened to me in my past to make me have this problem. What is wrong with me? Why do I feel like I need to give this f ucker who laid his hands on me a second chance? I DONT KNOW WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!!!!!!??????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
posted by ch-hay duex at 3:52 PM
1 Comments:
I am being dead serious here...I really think you need to seek professional help. Do it now while you can still afford it. I know you already realize you are putting yourself in bad relationships and situations, but maybe it will help you to get over it or at least realize how serious it is if someone besides me tells you that. The only problem with it is that a therapist couldn't possibly know the extent to which you have these problems.
Anyway...think about how good it would be if you would wait for the right person (instead of trying to push things with every guy who remotely shows you any attention) and just have that person love you instead of being on your leash or having you on a leash or having some sort of power struggle.
I know it's not in your nature to wait for something like that, but your life (and maybe your son's) is going to potentially be really screwed up and unhappy if you keep letting guys treat you however they want (oh, as long as they're sorry). "I'm sorry, baby. I'll never do it again. I promise...I'll change." Yeah, f'in right.
I have to say, though...I am proud of you that you are at least recognizing that your behavior is not healthy or normal. It makes me feel like I can put up with your insanity a little easier. :)
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