Friday, July 14, 2006

Happiness is a conscious choice, not an automatic response.

This is a quote that I recently acquired from my younger sister. I was sitting here pondering the meaning of it. Of course, it seems very straight forward. You can’t just expect to be happy you have to make the choice to be. I agree with this. BUT... I wish it were not the case. If I could just honestly be happy without thinking about it I think my life would be much better off. I feel like it is constantly being forced, my happiness that is. Why can’t it just come naturally?

On the other hand though, I very much agree that you will never be happy unless you let yourself be. And that is a conscious choice. The choice is not when to be happy it is weather or not to be happy. But, who honestly says that they don’t want to be happy. Everyone wants to be full of joy and sunshine don’t they?

I am sitting here at 2:15 in the a.m. thinking about my own situation. Am I making the conscious effort to be happy in my life right now? I could just sit here and say "well yes.. I am trying to be happy, but it is just not happening right now" But in all reality when I really really think about it. I am not sure if I am allowing myself the option right now. I am so often worried about things like "why don’t I have a boyfriend?" "Why doesn’t that guy like me?" “Why is my life so boring?" All of these little things that if I were to stop worrying about them I may actually turn out to be happy for a while. But why is it so hard for me to get rid of these thoughts and feelings. It’s like I am obsessed with it. It overcomes my thoughts at most points in my day. Why can’t I just be HAPPY with myself and where I am right now? I mean jeez. I have a great job and a wonderful family that would do anything for me. I love all of my friends I think they are the greatest people that could have ever come into my life. My son... god I love him sooo dearly. He is my world. And that alone I think should make me the happiest person on the planet. Yet I am not. So, my resolution (I know its not new years: Make a conscious choice to be happy. NO MATTER WHAT!!!!

I just hope I can do it.

1 Comments:

Blogger Unknown said...

There aer definitely some things in life that can happen that can contribute to overall unhappiness, but the older I get, teh more I realize that if you go into a situation with a negative attitude or if you go into a situation expecting too much, you're never going to be happy. Even if you have a good attitude, things don't work out a lot of times. That's just the nature of life. But being super negative is automatically going to make you unhappy.

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