Wow its been a long time since I have been on here! I am just needing a place to vent that my husband does not know about.... he will see if I block a blog on my other page so that he cant see it and will ask why it is blocked... anyway... nothing bad is wrong... I am just irritated... I HATE boys nights! i dont know if I will ever like them... I dont know why I hate them but i do... I never want my husband to go out with his friends to bars... is that wrong? I just feel like when you are married you dont do that stuff anymore... I do kinda have a double standard about it though... BUT when I go out with my friends it is not to some club downtown... it is to some podunk towny bar in town... I think my fear comes from sooooo many bad relationships before my husband. I know he is not them... and I know he will not cheat on me... i just dont even like the thought of him being out and being around other women... mostly hot young college age girls... I know I am just being a pissy wife... I just need to vent about it...I guess the good thing about it is that he comes home to me at the end of the night... but in my mind... anything ...even dancing with another girl is cheating... so did he cheat that night? I will never know... so maybe I should try to change my concept of the whole cheating thing... I have tried in the past... it is just not possible for me.... I dont know why... I dont know if I ever will... oh well...hopefully it wont matter and there wont be many more boys nights any time soon!! :) LOL i am such a bad wife! :)

Procrastination

So I am at the very end of the classes that I have to take to finish up my special education certification. I am currently taking the last two classes. I have been taking these classes mostly via email with a professor in another city. The last four or five classes that I have had I have put off to the last second also. but I think that I have put these two off the longest. All the work in the two are due by the 15th. which is next tuesday. I have not even began the work. One of them is supposed to be my practicum and I should have been working on it at least 3 to 5 hours a week for the last 10 weeks. WELL i have not even thought about it for more than an hour. So today I am starting to worry about the out come of the two classes. I have never recieved anything lower than an A in any of my grad classes and I believe that this is the time that I will get that C. Well i have to have a C to pass the classes. If I dont pass I have to do them over and I am soooo ready for school to be over that I really dont want that to happen. Plus I have to have passed the certification test that I took last month and i wont know about that till the 25th of this month. So I am starting to stress a little about the whole thing. Which I know is my own fault. But I have decided to get started on the work this week. I have taken the day off of work on Friday and I plan to do a littl e work then and then on Sunday I plan to work all day long on the work. I know its mothers day but I will just have to have lunch or dinner with mom and call it a day. I dont think that the work will take me any longer than a day or two so i think i can get it all done on sunday but if not I have all day after work on monday to get it finished and all day on tuesday and then i can send it to her on tuesday night. my wonderful signifigant other will be in reno all weekend and into the week so I will have nothing to do but sit around and do my work. So everyone wish me luck and pray that i get enough done to at least get a C! :) Nothing like shootin for the stars eh! :)
Night! MMMMWUAH!

Four eyes...

So lately my son has been complaining of eye pain and blinking his eyes alot. So I took him to the eye doctor and found out that he is farsighted and has trouble focusing on things that are close to him. So even though he can see the words in a book now it will be much harder for him to focus in on the words as they get closer together and smaller in the books he reads as he gets older. So the conclusion is that he needs the glasses when he is at school doing his work or if he is on the computer (since he is so close to the screen) So we bought two new pairs of glasses today, and it was cheaper for us to buy two pair than one. Tell me how that is possible, but anyway. (And we are yet to see if his good for nothing dad will pay for his half.)

I was really freaking out about this whole glasses thing. I was being a little superfical and was thinking he was going to look silly in them, and consequently not be as cute anymore :) LOL But the more I look at him in the glasses the more I think that he is really cute in them. Ijust hope that glasses are not a big deal anymore because I really dont want him to get made fun of. I know that I never made fun of anyone with glasses nor did I ever hear anyone make fun of another kid. But, you always hear those stories.

The thing about this is that today I asked the nurse at school if he had passed his vision test. She told me yes, but if his eyes were hurting it was better to be safe than sorry and go the the eye doctor. So finding out that he needed these glasses to read makes me wonder how many other little kids "pass" their vision test and their parents get told that thier eyes are fine and then they go through school for a few year and are not able to focus on what they are reading because they cant see. In turn they fall behind or develop a reading problem. Then they may get placed in special needs classes or something like that. I know that is far fetched, but crazier things have happened. And all of it could have been prevented if the eye test that the nurse did was a little more thorough.

That is all the ranting I have for the day! MMMMWUAH!

Growing up is hard to do...

So the topic given to me by ch-hay this evening is...If you could grow up in any decade what decade would you choose. This has taken me aback a little. I thought that I would instantly know and know all of the reasons why I would like to have grown up during that time. But, after much thought I have decided that decade that I wish I were a part of would have to be the mid seventies to the mid eighties. I know this is not a "decade" per say, but it is a ten year period. I like to hear all the things that my aunts and uncles and my mom and dad did during the late seventies. Plus, leagal drinking age was 18 for a while so we would have fun with that. I also really like the muscle cars from that period of time. I would personally enjoyed owning and driving a mid seventies Camero :) The music of that time period was great also. Everything was very laid back in the seventies. No one really cared about much. Everyone just chilled and had a good ol time. But them you get into the eighties and the world started to change. I would have liked to experience that change. I really dont have any specific reasons about why I would have liked these particular ten years, but that is a general overview for those of you who care.

Ok...why did I have to be a rocket scientist to get on here!

So after a very long time away from the blog we decided to start blogging again... well I got on here like 30 minutes ago and had to go through a freakin ton of crap to get my blog back... so because of this I am too tired right now to make a post... so I will have to get all over this tomorrow.

So it didnt hurt too bad!

So I was bi tchin and moaning about going back to work... So I went back today. It wasnt too bad after all. But, there were no children. So we shall see. I got a lot a work done. I am all planned up for a while. So now the question is what am I to do tomorrow? I guess I will resort to talking to my freakin awesome boyfriend on AIM.

My next problem is why the F cant I go to sleep???? I need to get up at the a ss crack of dawn... but still cant seem to get my body to shut the F down!! GRRRRRRRR!!

Ok so you know how I always complain about not having a man?

Well... I found one... one that is soo freaking amazing I can't even stand it. Well, he has been around for a while but we just started taking it more seriously around July 15th to be exact!! HA!

Anyway... His name is Josh and he is pretty much freakin awesome. We just get each other. We are exactly alike. We like all the same things, except he likes the Cardinals and I dig the Cubs!! HA!! He is very kind, sweet, he is very genuine and sincere, and he is a hopeless bleeding heart romantic just like me. I love it!

He even wants to marry me! He has told me that as soon as he can afford it, and gets it oked by my dad of course, he is going to ask me. :) He is even looking for a job down here. You see, he lives in Springfield and I live in So. Ill. Which su cks pretty bad. But, I see him every weekend for the most part. If I am not there, he will come here. So, he is going to move down here with me!! I am soo excited!!! He is shooting for a wedding next summer!! I was like ok... we shall see!! But you know secretly I will sooo marry him. I am sooo freakin in love with him I cant stand it.

At first I was like... I dont know about this... I cant be in love this fast. But, I realized I really am and am just gonna go with it. My friends are happy for me and they all really like him. FINALLY!! LOL! I think that secretly a couple, if not all of them, think I am just pulling a move that I pull sometimes and just think I love him. But, they are holding their tounges and not saying anything to me!! Thanks guys!! But, I genuinely honestly love him and want to spend the rest of my life with him. He makes me very very happy. I am the happiest I have been in a really really long time. I know this will last forever. He is amazing. Have I said that already?!?! HA!!!

Back to school blues!!!

So now that I have had approximately 2 months of absolutely nothing to do, it is time to go back to work. I am sooo not happy about this. For an entire summer I have been waking up around 11 or 12 every day and sitting around on my butt doing absolutely nothing. Now, I have to get up at 6am and get ready and go back to work. And you expect me not to complain. I mean come on!!!

I know, I know... those of you who are not teachers are thinking " Are you kidding me? Is she really complaining? I have worked all summer!!" But, seriously, it is very hard not to actually be depressed about the school year begining. You know maybe it would not be a bad idea to make us teachers have to work some thru the summer too... ummmm... now that I think about that...nah!!! :)

Not only have I had an entire sunmmer off, I am starting a new job. I know starting a new job may be a little scary for some, but for me its a dream come true. You see last year I was in a pretty rough school, as you may be able to see from previous blogs, but this year I am going to be in heaven. Not only are the kids going to be angels compared, I am going to be in a school that pretty much caters to your every need. You need a set of workbooks... ok...just order them and we will pay for them for you! I never got a dang thing at my old school. Here they just hand it to you... pretty much on a silver platter. I am very happy to have landed this job. Still yet, I don't want to go back to school!!!! I'm worse than a kid!! :)

Well now that I am done complaining about my oh so terrible job, I am off to start planning a few language lessons before the big year gets started.